Oh me...

I don'y know why I go to the news sites these days, it's pretty depressing. World events that are worrying, national news that usually means I end up feeling guilty or worthless about living on benefits.Non-news items that are trivial and mean nothing. I like to keep up to date with things, vaguely. I don't feel very much part of the world though. Hard to relate to things, and other people find it hard to relate to me. So I'm the ever-alien square peg trying to fit into the round hole of the world. Facebook is not a good thing either. Un-liking and un-following so much these days, it's getting to be not a lot left on me for there. And when I open my mouth, or rather let my fingers do the talking, 9 times out of 10 it feels like I'm either in full grumpy old man, moaning mode, or being something of an arsehole. Some of my stuff borders on troll-like, albeit more intelligent - I have the intelligence to fight my corner and win, either outright or by forcing a stalemate. What the f--- is wrong with me? I don't really live in the world though, so it's no wonder I can't 'people' properly - little intolerant streaks I had in me are now starting to grossly exaggerate and that's ugly. I've got to try and fix myself somehow. Yep, we all know how good I am at doing that...